Ending Self Sabotage

Edward had brought with him from childhood the defense mechanism of disassociation, and it was getting in his way as an adult until Aileen Nobles helped him reconnect and stay present with EFT.

By Aileen Nobles

Edward was a very creative musician and an engineer by profession.  He had always dreamed of making incredible healing music as part of his contribution to the world.  He also managed to self-sabotage and procrastinate to the degree that nothing really happened… he still had to earn his living doing a job that did not resonate with his heart and soul.

Edward was very spiritual and insightful, and after a lot of soul searching, had come to the realization that he was afraid of finishing projects as they kept him in a “safe” known place.  As long as everything remained the same, it was uncomfortably comfortable.  Therefore he sabotaged opportunities that came his way that would have allowed him to move forward, and, he procrastinated.  I think a lot of readers can probably relate to that. It's a pattern that so many struggle with.

I asked him to find a disconnected part of himself, and imagine where it was in relationship to his body.  He found it to his left and in front.

The next question was:  When had he first noticed that he disassociated from his physical body.  He remembered that he spent most of his childhood in that state, looking down on himself going through the motions of surviving a challenging childhood.

Instead of starting with the childhood, I was strongly being guided to start right here with the disassociated part.

We started tapping on:

“Even though I disconnected when I was very young, I would love to love and accept myself anyway.”
"Disconnecting was a very clever thing to do, and I did it well.”
“I have spent most of my life in a disconnected state, as it keeps me safe.”
“I didn't have to feel the pain as intensely as if I had stayed in the body.”
“I have spent most of my life this way, and don't know what it will be like to be in my physical body.”

We did about ten minutes tapping around these words.
“It was a clever thing to do as a child, but now I don't need to do it, in fact it gets in my way. “It's a habit, it's the way I am.”

Deep breath.
I had him watch himself from a safe place.
Edward tapped on his thymus as he did this exercise.

“I connect with and embrace all of my energy, creating this need to self sabotage and procrastinate.”
Deep breath, repeat twice more.
“I connect with all my energy from my disassociated part watching me be immobilized out of fear, and I bring it back to me.”
Deep breath, repeat twice.
“I now release all of the energy of the part of me watching me self-sabotage and procrastinate out of my aura, and I send it into the “Light.”
Deep breath and repeat.
“I now ask that disconnected part of me that is now of the “Light” to reconnect with me, to work with me, as we move into wholeness.”
Deep breath.

We talked about what he was afraid of in his future, and tapped on being worthy of realizing his dreams.

I used kinesiology on myself, as this was a phone session to find any more places of subconscious resistance.  He was amazingly clear.

We tapped on allowing  “Creator's Energy” to be in the driver's seat… and trusting the Divine Plan. Edward felt an enormous shift happening during this time, but still had tension in his solar plexus.  In his mind's eye, it was grey and the size of a football and amorphous and gooey.

We tapped the fear in the solar plexus away, and then he ran a movie of imagining himself accomplishing all he needed to do… no resistance.

He felt lighter than he ever remembered.

Edward is now diligently working on his theta and beta frequencies and music, creating like never before, he is finally out of his own way, and happier than ever before.

Namaste
Aileen Nobles